Penny and therapy

One of the concerns I have as a parent of a Down's Syndrome child is how I will be able to pay for the additional costs of therapy for my Special Needs child.

Please understand that I do have insurance!

One of the misnomers of the insurance argument is that you will be covered from catastophic financial loss by having such an investment in your back pocket. Please understand that I must cover "co-pays" with each visit.

As a retired US Air Force Master Sergeant I receive $1550.00 a month. Of this $50 a month is taken out of my pay to cover the earlier fees demanded as a result of my ex wife losing our daughter into the DHS system. Yes... someone must pay for the costs which were created as a result of stupidity. In this case they go after the person who has the money... and that person is me. Even though the money I have is dwindling... I would have had more financial leverage in this situation had my home not been wrecked and trashed by my ex wife and her wonderful cranked out hoodlum friends.

I am currently at the point of having to make a hard decision in regards to my child's welfare. Do I continue to struggle in Colorado Spring's economy where there is no realistic worthy employment opportunity for me? Or do I snap and negatively affect those who refuse to assist and help? Of course it is one thing to verbally reflect such angst and anger... and another to act upon such feelings. IMO I guess the end result should speak for itself should it not? While one set of grandparents can purchase a brand new rice car for their oldest grand daughter... and absolutely ignore the one living inside my home... I am left to openly wonder if God actually hears my prayers... or is he silent and ignoring my plight for a reason? Perhaps if all is lost I should let my anger consume me? It will make for another 2 hour drama movie on television will it not?

I remind myself that our society is building more prisons to deal with anger filled men who are losing hope.

Regardless... I press on. I have a job interview with Boeing this upcoming Thursday... another interview of the many I have had thus far as I continue to endure my unemployed status.