2009 What will it bring?

Another year is here... what will it bring?

Thus far it has been determined to usher in more pain into others live's... an impending divorce between Lelland and Janet... if he actually lives to see the day of the divorce with his health conditions deteriorating.

We both married into a family that kept us "on the outside... looking in." We identified that we were mere placement keepers, to be in a spot temporarily or at thebeck and call of their daughters... in an as needed state of existance. Never fully embraced, or intended to be part of the family.

This will be a 4th year of a wealthy clique ignoring in their view... a blight in the family... a down's syndrome child; while they accept infidelity, adultery, drug usage, and unbridled teenage sex under their roof.

I have been unemployed for over three years now.

My sole responsibility has been bringing a damaged little girl back to existance in a world that clearly doesn't want her... or for that fact even want me. To say this is a down moment for me would be an understatement; as Debi is locked away to face case #D0212006CR004670 in Division 4 I do not find a moment of satisfaction. She should be applauded... She clearly was willing to go to jail for her convictions and needs. Perhaps when one has reached a rope's end they should resolve to have the same conviction and outcome?